I have to once again post about my kids. For years now, I can easily see the things that I do wrong as a mother, mainly losing my patience with my kids, and it makes me so sad that I am so quick to get mad, snap at them, and repremand them for things they do wrong. I seriously struggle with patience.
Like I said, it is something I have struggled with for a long time and while I was in Utah this last weekend, I made the comment around my mother, that I thought I was a bad mom. A couple days later, she called me and repremanded me for thinking such a thing. We had a serious conversation about this and after a great deal of council, uplift, and tears, I got off the phone with her. Austin and Aubree had come into their room (which is where I was talking on the phone) and asked me why I was crying and I told them it was because I needed to be a better mommy. Aubree hugged me as tight as she could and told me that I was such a good mommy and Austin said, "You don't have to be a better mommy; just be the same mommy." I love my kids. They love me even though I have faults and that means everything to me.
But I have to say, that today I tried some suggestions my mom gave me and it made the most amazing difference. Not once today did I get mad, I looked at every situation from a loving standpoint and I couldn't believe that difference it made in Aubree! She was such a good girl today! She listened and obeyed almost everything I said. And the one time the kids did have a timeout today, I was very calm and collected about the whole situation. So today was a huge breakthrough for me and I owe it to my Mom, my kids, and Heavenly Father. I plan on doing the same thing tomorrow and the next day and the next day and the next until this becomes second nature to me because it is so worth it! Today I was the mom I have always wanted to be.
4 years ago